Saturday, April 30, 2011

Then who could stand against?

Hello my lovely friends,

I am really not a consistent blogger. But you know, I only really blog when I feel like I have something to say. That's not so bad now, is it? 

The Lord is miraculous. 
I say this because He truly works throughout our lives in a way I cannot even explain. When I think the Lord is doing nothing, when my spirit is low, and when I feel defeated...I am brought out of struggle and disbelief, and I find a Holy and Trustworthy God, waiting for me with open, loving arms. He is our teacher, and we learn so much being in tune with Him; listening patiently.
Just when I think I cannot climb out of my struggle, His hands reach down to hold me and I let go of what I thought would keep my spirit luke warm. Thank the Lord for His Wisdom and His understanding, because without it, I am lost in darkness. 
I have peace that if I place my full trust in Him, He will do extraordinary things. 
He will provide!
If God is for us, then who can stand against?

Romans 8

Deliverance from Bondage
   1Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
   2For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has set you free from the law of sin and of death.
   3For what the Law could not do, weak as it was through the flesh, God did: sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and as an offering for sin, He condemned sin in the flesh,
   4so that the requirement of the Law might be fulfilled in us, who do not walk according to the flesh but according to the Spirit.
   5For those who are according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who are according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit.
   6For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace,
   7because the mind set on the flesh is hostile toward God; for it does not subject itself to the law of God, for it is not even able to do so,
   8and those who are in the flesh cannot please God.
   9However, you are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God dwells in you But if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Him.
   10If Christ is in you, though the body is dead because of sin, yet the spirit is alive because of righteousness.
   11But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you.
   12So then, brethren, we are under obligation, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh--
   13for if you are living according to the flesh, you must die; but if by the Spirit you are putting to death the deeds of the body, you will live.
   14For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God.
   15For you have not received a spirit of slavery leading to fear again, but you have received a spirit of adoption as sons by which we cry out, "Abba! Father!"
   16The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are children of God,
   17and if children, heirs also, heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him so that we may also be glorified with Him.
   18For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us.
   19For the anxious longing of the creation waits eagerly for the revealing of the sons of God.
   20For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of Him who subjected it, in hope
   21that the creation itself also will be set free from its slavery to corruption into the freedom of the glory of the children of God.
   22For we know that the whole creation groans and suffers the pains of childbirth together until now.
   23And not only this, but also we ourselves, having the first fruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our body.
   24For in hope we have been saved, but hope that is seen is not hope; for who hopes for what he already sees?
   25But if we hope for what we do not see, with perseverance we wait eagerly for it.
Our Victory in Christ
   26In the same way the Spirit also helps our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we should, but the Spirit Himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words;
   27and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.
   28And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
   29For those whom He foreknew, He also predestined to become conformed to the image of His Son, so that He would be the firstborn among many brethren;
   30and these whom He predestined, He also called; and these whom He called, He also justified; and these whom He justified, He also glorified.
   31What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us?
   32He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things?
   33Who will bring a charge against God's elect? God is the one who justifies;
   34who is the one who condemns? Christ Jesus is He who died, yes, rather who was raised, who is at the right hand of God, who also intercedes for us.
   35Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
   36Just as it is written,
   37But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us.
   38For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers,
   39nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. 

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Use Me.

I'm really happy where the Lord is leading us. Here is why.

I grew up in a Christian home, and I am very thankful for it. I'm thankful that I never stopped asking questions and that I wanted the light on the truth. I felt like I have had a concrete base knowledge of the Lord, being built up and encouraged to walk in Christ through growing up with dedicated youth pastors and their wives. Their passion for the Lord drew me into wanting to know Him more. Though I didn't always have a strong relationship with the Lord, I've always felt like the Lord has pursued me and I him. I was very young when I asked for the Lord to be in my heart. I actually can't even remember how old I was, I was that young. But I vividly remember kneeling beside my sister's bedside with my Mother, and telling her 'I wanted to join, I wanted to be saved.' Even though I was practically a baby, I know I remember this memory for a reason, and believe the Lord's hand and provision was over my life from there, and that I would continue to grow in His Love. Through many doubts and turning around and around in my faith through childhood, I've grown to trust in Him greatly. There was significance to my doubts and to my lack of understanding, because once I learned the significance of my life in His hands, I understood I was redeemed by the Lord from my sin by the blood that was shed on the cross.

I am realizing more and more this year the Grace the Lord has for me through stories in the Bible, and through providing for us everyday. I am learning how unreachable and unattainable the Lord's knowledge is and that relying on His knowledge and understanding is essential each day.
I'm really enjoying our community group from our church as we go through the old testament, studying the story of God; the foundation and happenings that took place, pointing to the Lord, and leading up to the time of Jesus on Earth. All leading to Him, to show that He is King of kings, and Lord of lords. He is the Messiah!
 In my life, I've never been able to connect this deeply into the old testament, and it's really exciting. I've never really been deep in the old testament for several reasons, one being I've not really been able to find a connection with it in my life or the Lords on my own. I don't believe I could study the old testament and understand the parallels without some guidance, so having this time to deepen my knowledge, is deepening my awe of the Lord.
Because I've never been an intellectual person, it's always been something that has affected me negatively. It has held me back from reaching out to others, when I felt called to pray with them. 
The devil has very much a way of holding us down and keeping us far away for pursuing others and the Lord.
But God has taught me so much in the last few years that He wants to use all of us and that through having differences in knowledge, character, and strengths, He is able to use us. I believe that through having a heart of compassion, He can use me to His advantage. That though I hunger for knowledge and know it is important to keep feeding myself, He will speak through me; He will use me.

It's amazing what weight the Lord can place upon your heart when you pray and ask for His will to be done. The Lord has been working in Matt and I a lot the past few months. We've been asking for His will to be done in our lives, to use us beyond measure. The days have been turning and the Lord has been at work faithfully and fast. I'm seeing how He has been preparing both Matt and I even before we met. He places so many layers into our lives to be used, and though a lot of work has been put into making us, I feel that this to Him was effortless. He has prepared so much, and I am seeing it all come together into a full orchestra. Like every resonant moment has been a musician, and that He just keeps adding to the orchestra; He keeps providing and keeps delivering.

If you're reading, please pray for us. Pray that the we will follow the Lord's guidance and that we would have a clear understanding of where He's leading us.

How is the Lord working in your life these days?

With all my Love,

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

He is bigger.

Been spending lots of time outside.
I've been trying to. So far I have a sunburn, so there's the evidence.
But, today felt more successful only because Matt was right beside me.
Cool and collected about the bees and wasps that buzz and frighten me.
While he doesn't budge when they come a buzzin'.
If I'm alone, I flinch.
If they continue to buzz around me, I run inside and yelp so loud, the sound echos in the neighborhood.
Other than being around things that both buzz and sting...
I think I'm pretty calm most of the time.

Onto more important topics...

I love the rushing waters that come when being in consistent prayer and devotion to reading His word. 
If I could describe our marriage lately in one word, I would say unity.
Now, although we were unified in Christ through our marriage, the water doesn't always feel to full and rushing. When our priorities have been unorganized, we begin to thirst for things of the flesh, and our focus is not only selfish, but misguided. 
I've learned more than I can explain in the past year and 9 months of being married, and one of the most important things I've learned is keeping Christ's will for our lives the focus. We were called to be disciples; we should yearn for the Word and to hear from the Holy Spirit. 
It's amazing what Christ has done in our lives the past month. I have seen so much change in my husband as he has taken a godly leadership position in our Marriage. He motivates and encourages me to read and be in consistent prayer throughout the day, not just by a gentle vocal reminder, but by leading an example in reading and praying himself. 
The Lord knows our hearts, but He wants to hear our prayers. And it's so easy to get caught up in worldly worries and productivity and forget all the things that should take up our time and energy. 
I just want you to encourage you. Whether you are married, engaged, in a relationship, or single. 
Christ is bigger than all of this. He is worth the time and the energy. There are people in the world who have never heard His name, who know nothing about His Grace and Love, who are living in desolate places full of sin and hopelessness. It is worth it in the end to struggle and seek, even give up our dreams, when others find freedom in His Kingdom and Lord is glorified.

Matthew 6:25-33 
25"For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?
   26"Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?
   27"And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?
   28"And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin,
   29yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.
   30"But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith!
   31"Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?'
   32"For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
   33"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you."

With Love,